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French origin of the word “essays” meaning “to try, trial, attempt”

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Truth, regardless of outcome

Truth, regardless of outcome

Do you like fixing (although you probably say "helping") other people so they can feel better?Are you constantly aware of everything so you can right things when they go wrong or, even better, prevent them from going...

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Choose to live your big life

Choose to live your big life

We all-too-easily live lives that are small because they feel safe.We were taught growing up that there were right and wrong answers to multiple-choice questions and think the same applies to how you can live your...

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The thirteen ways we gaslight ourselves

The thirteen ways we gaslight ourselves

We gaslight ourselves. We know something but then convince ourselves that we don’t because it doesn’t make sense. We question if we’re too idealistic, too sensitive, too much many times a day. We talk ourselves out of...

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You were given a job at birth

You were given a job at birth

Here’s the way I see it: You were given a job at birth. It’s simultaneously the thing you’ve always known deep down and the thing you’ve always tried to suppress. But you’re afraid to take this thing seriously and look...

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Be honest about your hunger

Be honest about your hunger

If you’re like me, somewhere along the way you learned that what you really wanted wasn’t possible. I always wanted to be a writer, but “no one made money writing”. And then, I lost my way. Other people seemed to know...

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I want you to know…

I want you to know…

I want you to know you don’t have to be perfect in order to be loved.I want you to know you don’t have to heal before being worthy.I want you to know you don’t have to be unafraid before taking action.I want you to know...

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Your only job in life

Your only job in life

You are meant to be here.You are born with a role to play in this game of life.You have things in you that are waiting to come alive.It can be big or small; a lover you’re meant to be with, a child you’re meant to bring...

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Your darkness doesn’t scare me

Your darkness doesn’t scare me

I want you to know that I’m not scared of your darkness.   I’m not scared of the gremlins you fight daily. I’m not scared of your white hot shame. I’m not scared of your hurt, pain, and heartbreak. I’m not scared of...

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Staying small is a survival mechanism

Staying small is a survival mechanism

It makes total sense we stay small.   For centuries we needed to conform otherwise we’d be exiled. If we don’t stay small it forces others to face the ways they shrink themselves. So by becoming big we risked offending...

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Fear regret more than death

Fear regret more than death

We need to talk about death more.   Death isn’t to be feared, denied, or shhh’d, it’s to be embraced.   We’re so afraid of death without realizing that the acceptance of our loss of life can be the very thing...

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“If only they knew”: shame as social control

“If only they knew”: shame as social control

It’s hair in places we shouldn’t have it, it’s getting grumpy when we get tired and/or hangry, it’s debt, it’s coming from a rich family, it’s trauma (with big Ts and little T’s), it’s being freakishly smart, it’s not...

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The unlived life

The unlived life

The unlived life. For as long as I can remember I felt as though within me there was a life I could live. The unlived life; abandoned dreams, untapped ideas, underdeveloped talent, unrealized potential. The life I was...

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The hamster wheel of happiness

The hamster wheel of happiness

You don’t think things can be easy.   In fact, you fight it.   There are moments, people, glimpses of simple happiness that sneak up on you in such a way that when you catch yourself thinking -- you’re scared.   You...

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Acceptance is the ultimate paradox

Acceptance is the ultimate paradox

I often feel insatiable.   I want more food, drinks, love, connection, money, likes, clothes, followers, laughter, kisses, hugs, dinners, physical touch and more. I want more more more, I never want it to end, and no...

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Personal power requires addressing social power

Personal power requires addressing social power

I’m kinda bad at business. My website is continually out of date. There’s never any pressure to work with me. You don't have to "buy now". I don't do transformations. I don't even want to change you. I suck at elevator...

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Black Lives Matter: Anti-Racism

Black Lives Matter: Anti-Racism

So many times in my life I’ve been afraid of saying/doing the wrong thing that I don’t say/do anything at all. I take time. But sometimes showing up imperfect and making mistakes does more progress than perfection...

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Your wanting isn’t bad, but it is dangerous

Your wanting isn’t bad, but it is dangerous

I want to feel big.   Free, whole, full, wild, sure, independent, confident, sexy, sensual, passionate, loud, peace, ease, flow, calm, beautiful, oozing, true, trust. NOT needy, quiet, complacent, powerless, constricted,...

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The Opposite Fear: Getting what you want

The Opposite Fear: Getting what you want

What you really fear is the opposite of what you think you’re afraid of.Huh?If you’re afraid of being left, maybe you really fear being intimately loved. If you’re afraid of being a failure, maybe you really fear being...

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Healing is bullshit

Healing is bullshit

Every time I’ve had a(nother) mass I’ve been afraid to tell people.   Because, well, judgment and shame.   “Shouldn’t she have it figured out by now?” “What is she doing to cause this?” “I thought she meditates and shit...

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The dark fire in us *is* dangerous

The dark fire in us *is* dangerous

"The world as we have created it is a process of our thinking. It cannot be changed without changing our thinking." -Albert EinsteinI had four surgeries as a baby that left me with two scars on my stomach for as long as...

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Fucked up syndrome

Fucked up syndrome

I can do this thing in my head when I say something where, in an instant, I go through all possible permutations of how a person could perceive it. Because then I can give you what you want to hear. Because then you can...

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Dear Man in Seat 28D

Dear Man in Seat 28D

If there’s only one thing I want you to take away from "Dear Man in Seat 28D" it’s this; RUN TOWARDS YOUR PAIN. I want us to run towards our pain so we stop our suffering. Because when you don’t face it two things...

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The “Then What?” Method

The “Then What?” Method

Soooo it’s been a crazy week, eh? Now, I’m not usually one to write about world events. a. There are far more informed, intelligent people and organizations than me. b. There’s so much already out there -- who needs...

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Suffering happens in our minds

Suffering happens in our minds

While I’ve held off sharing this because I think I’m too sarcastic to be enlightened, too science-y to be spiritual, and too skeptical to be sure of anything… something clicked for me just after New Year’s.*insert...

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The greatest threat to our future is apathy

The greatest threat to our future is apathy

I’ve been saying for a while that feeling is my raison d’être because apathy breaks my heart.* APATHY (noun): lack of feeling or emotion, indifference, lack of interest, unconcern, uninterestedness, unresponsiveness,...

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Please, tell me how I’m wrong.

Please, tell me how I’m wrong.

I had a --n albeit self-made -- tumour scare in July. After five surgeries for four ovarian cysts and then one for a tumour in May, I’m a little paranoid at the slightest sign something may be growing back. (And thank...

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Society is a Fight Club

Society is a Fight Club

All of society is a myth. An imagined, created myth. If enough humans just stop believing in something, it can’t keep existing.Bras, clothing brands as status symbols, shaving our legs or face, diets, bottled water, etc....

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Permission to lead multiple lives: granted

Permission to lead multiple lives: granted

I feel like I have multiple personalities and lead multiple lives sometimes. My career? Right now I’m a business consultant, an online coach, a personal trainer to one client that I adore, and a blogger slash (aspiring)...

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It’s time we talk about that s-word

It’s time we talk about that s-word

You know the s-word. The one no one wants to talk about. The one we all cringe at the thought, take a sip of our (preferably alcoholic) drink when someone brings it up, and when you read it below you’re gonna pull a Joe...

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You like pain because you think you deserve it

You like pain because you think you deserve it

We’re in an epidemic as humans as we overwhelmingly don’t feel like enough, feel bad/guilty/wrong, and feel unworthy. "I’m not worthy, therefore I am,” is more like it these days. It’s why personal development, therapy...

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You actually are NOT worthy. (You’re welcome).

You actually are NOT worthy. (You’re welcome).

There’s a part of me that's innately imperfect and fundamentally flawed. (And don’t you dare try to convince me otherwise. Trust me, I’ve tried.) My therapist and I have identified that because I was born with a disease...

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The absolute scariest emotion: happiness

The absolute scariest emotion: happiness

  With all your positive vibes and love sent my way the surgery went so well it’s like it never happened. …because it didn’t! 😂 I was all ready to go until my surgeon told me the case before me was taking way longer...

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The secret to living is dying

The secret to living is dying

In an appointment in February to receive results after undergoing fertility testing, a mass in my left adnexa was found in the ultrasound.   (Adnexa-what, you ask? Basically where my left ovary used to be after the...

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[Podcast] On Reclaiming Your Body

[Podcast] On Reclaiming Your Body

For the full(er) story of my 2018 and what I believe in for us as humans, here's a podcast that I did on "Life in Limbo" with the amazing Stephanie Pellett. I was awkward at first, but then we laughed, and I also cried....

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Integrate the humanness into healthcare

Integrate the humanness into healthcare

Because going through those surgeries? At times it felt like no one really got it and it felt disconnected. I felt like an organ or diagnosis instead of a person.I felt shame because something was wrong with me.I felt...

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